There's a quote by C.S. Lewis that I absolutely love, and it perfectly tells the story of where I'm at in life right now.
"We are not necessarily doubting that God will do the best for us: we are wondering how painful the best will turn out to be."
WHOA. I feel that. There are so many questions.
"How painful will it be? How many mountains will I face? How many battles will I go through that I'm not prepared for?"
This requires a huge amount of trust - more than I/we often have the capacity for. And I'm not usually the best truster. As a very logical, black-and-white, practical-minded person who loves absolute certainty, trusting is difficult for me.
But I'm holding on to the promise that it will be good.
I think we often get the idea in our heads that it - it being the journey of life and living out our calling - will be easy. But that's not necessarily true. I think this quote sums it up perfectly:
"It will be so much harder than you can imagine, but oh so much better than you could have ever dreamed of."
We must believe that it will be good. At the same time, we must also know that it will be scary, and hard, and overwhelming at times. But the bottom line, the truth that will always stand, is that it will be good.
And this is one of my biggest struggles.
There is a silent gnawing in the pit of my stomach and a devilish voice in my ear that says “But what if it won’t always be good? What if you mess up and lose everything? What if you lose your friends? What if you lose it all?”
The truth that will always stand is that it will be good!
I guess my writing about this struggle is part of the path to correcting my wrong thinking and false beliefs. To get it out into the open where I can better see it, and then maybe I can change it.
I don’t have it all figured out, that much is certain. But I think that’s true for each one of us. None of us have it all figured out, and to believe so is only deceiving ourselves.
Especially in the midst of doubt about our future, doubt that it will be good, doubt that our lives will turn out awesome, we must believe that it will be good.
We must hold on to this belief like our lives depend on it.
It's okay to have doubt, but where we get into trouble is when we allow that doubt to influence our decision-making. When the doubt holds us back from our purpose. Let's not allow doubt to do that to us.
Let's make ourselves the boss over our doubt. Because while we might not always be in control of our future, we can always choose to be in control over our mind and what we believe.
Let's keep believing together, because it will be good!
Practical Next Steps
What's a promise you are holding on to? What is an area of your life that requires huge trust right now? Write those things down. Now start believing that those promises will come true, and those areas of your life will thrive and prosper. Declare the truth about your identity over your circumstances. Saturate yourself in the things you know to be true about who you are.